I have said (in some form or another) on many occasions in the blog that I believe God intended for me to not have children, and I find it a blessing, something for which I am abundantly grateful.
It's been a couple of months since my last post, and part of the reason for that (aside from sometimes simply running out of things to say!) is that some of the health issues that were going on back then in our household have escalated in unexpected ways.
As we have been facing doctors offices and hospitals, tests, medical bills, and the stress over health and finances, hardly a day has gone by when I haven't breathed a prayer of gratitude for being childfree. There have been a few days when I felt pushed to the edge of my sanity, and I thought, "How would I have possibly been able to handle this if I also had children to look after?!" Perhaps that makes me weaker than those who have to care for children while enduring similar trials, but I do believe that God knows my weaknesses and has spared me from an added emotional and financial burden that might have crushed me.
Life has fundamentally changed for us, and I expect that things are going to get worse before they get better, but we do find some comfort in the ways God has been demonstrating his care and faithfulness.
I am also grateful for those of you with whom I have had the pleasure of interacting on this blog. Even though most of us don't actually know each other, I am touched by your stories, struggles, and words of encouragement, and I do pray for you folks. Whenever God might bring us to your mind, I would be thankful for your prayers too.
